its really pathetic how i keep trying to hold on to something that's not coming back... i never stopped loving you i just stopped showing it..
it has been a month since we broke up. i don't know why, but i'm feeling low. i've been looking for the cheerful me... and i can't find it! and you know what? i hate this! i hate it that i can't smile for no reason. i hate it that my laugh is empty. i hate it that no matter how much powder i put on, i never glowed. i hate it that i sigh heavily every now and then. i hate it that i have to retell the breakup story over and over again. i hate it that i'm humming "emo" songs. i hate it that i can't help but to be bitter about what happened. i hate it that i receive many hugs, but none of them was from him. i hate it that i associate him with every thing that i do. i hate it that i side with him against my disappointed friends. i hate it that my heart skipped a beat upon learning that he had left a message for me in friendster and greeted me a happy birthday i hate it that i have been resisting myself to text and call him. i hate it... that even though i did not and would not want to be miserable... I CAN'T HELP BUT TO BE MISERABLE.
so this is how breakups are. it kills slowly... it chews up all the happiness inside till we're left with an empty self...
but then again... i want him back and i miss him! why do we need to hurt ourselves with this?
me & my future hubby..this would be a perfect theme song
(Guy)
Its always been a mystery to me, How two hearts can come together, And love can last forever. But now that I have found you I believe, That a miracle has come when God sends the perfect one. So gone are all my questions about why, And i've never been so sure of anything in my life
~chorus~
Oh I wonder what God was thinking,when he created you. I wonder if He knew everything I would need, Because he made all my dreams come true. When God made you, He must have been thinking about me.
(Girls)
Ooo ooo,I promise that wherever you may go, wherever life may lead you, With all my heart I'll be there too. And from this moment on I want you to know, I'll let nothing come between us, and I will love the ones you love. (guy):So gone are all my questions about why (girl echoes):about why
Duet:Oh I wonder what God was thinking when he created you, I wonder if He knew everythin I would need, Because He made all my dreams come true. When God made you He must've been thinking about me.
Bridge
He made the sun He made the moon, To harmonize a perfect tune, One can't do without the other they just have to be together. And that is how I know its true, Your for me and i'm for you and my world Just cant be right without you in my life
Chorus
(guy) He must have heard every prayer I've been praying (girl echo) I've been praying (both)He must've knew everything I would need
When God made you, He must've been thinking about me.
The cranes are here. The blue barricaded gates stand like gigantic structures amidst the dusty site. Pretty soon, Naga will have it all for you.
Yes, they are building a new SM in Naga which shall feature a four storey mall which shall house a supermarket, four cinemas, a food court, and parking lots. We may just make the cut of the new Manilenyos. See, it already rhymes with Nagueños?
Now, if only they can finally return to building that supposed stadium near the SM site, then I cannot ask for more, just for now. Araneta Complex, anyone?
AVENUE PLAZA HOTEL
The Avenue Plaza Hotel is the newest landmark in the bustling metropolis of Naga city.It is a commanding 6,000 rate tourism,rich culture and heritage as well as warm Filipino hospitality. Avenue Plaza Hotel is more than luxury and comfort. “The core of our strength is a philosophy focused and dedicated to service and satisfaction,” dedicated to service and satisfaction,” Aside from its excellent 65 well-appointed rooms and suites that feature Dew Foam Posture Pedic beds for weary travelers; the hotel prides itself with a lot more plush amenities, such as its Café Piazuela; world-class Olympia Gym and Sauna; the Umbria Infinity Pool; the first of its kind in Bicol; The Board Room for business executives, and; a hassle-free banquet and convention facilities with state-of-the-art Bose sound system. As the hotel’s chief receptionist would greet an incoming guest: Make Avenue Plaza Hotel your chez-soi in Naga.
AVENUE SQUARE
This is a relatively new spot (with free Wi Fi to boot) in the heart of Bicolandia. Avenue Square has a rich mix of dining establishments and a classy hotel right in the heart of Naga City. There’s ample parking space, everything is clean and the lights just seem to de-stress you. Complete your stay in Camarines Sur by hanging out in Avenue Square.this is where the night life in Naga begins…
Magsaysay Avenue: Naga's Libis
looking for a night life in naga? go to magsaysay ave, stretch of numerous bars to choose from. if you want a first class date, bring your date at Avenue plaza Hotel for a piano dinner. live band? at villa caceres hotel the live band there are very good entertainers, with sexy vocalists. ihaw ihaw grills are plentiful in magsaysay ave. MOLINO GRILL
WEST PARK
BEANBAG COFFEE
ICE CREAM & COFFEE SHOPS NATIVE RESTO ALONG MAGSAYSAY DINER IN MAYON AVENUE CONVENIENCE & DRUG STORES MERCURY DRUG KFC MCdo JOLLIBEE about to close the day’s business 15 MARTYRS PARK Mcdo And Dunkin Donut
NAGA CITY CENTRO
I can’t post all the stablisments and hotels picture because restriction is imposed.. I have no access also to the Naga City Community forum..i cant put up a pic of newest building to be built in the city due to privacy but one thing is for sure the tourism industry is booming in Naga City with all these new hotels that are emerging.
I'm not the easiest person to love I'm often the one who lets things go unresolved
Yet you choose to be On the side of me On the side of me Yet you choose to be on the side of me On the side of me
I'm not too proud of some things I've done in my life The skeletons in my closet Are too big for me to hide
Yet you choose to be On the side of me On the side of me Blessed Charity You're on the side of me On the side of me
Everyone needs a friend to hold When it's cold outside And there's no place to go Everyone needs a friend to hold All alone I cried There was no place to go I remember when nobody cared But you
I'm not the easiest person to love But you, you've opened your heart to show me what I'm worth
'Cause you choose to be On the side of me On the side of me What a mystery You're on the side of me On the side of me
Everyone needs a friend to hold When it's cold outside And there's no place to go Everyone needs a friend to hold All alone I cried There was no place to go
I remember when nobody cared Nobody cared But you...
Yeah you choose to be On the side of me On the side of me
This goes to someone that likes to sit in the chatroom with me for hours and tell me im her bestfriend ows..really?but when were done talking, this person is talking behind my back..i am sick and tired of it.. it need to stop! you dont run my life..i can make a decision by myself. i can take ur suggestion but really you dont need to wrap up things for me..you wanna act like you dont see SH*T going on! i told you, its done and over but your sitting there faking notes WTF! you try to act like your the right one and i was off beam you need to know that your mouth is lethal, you appear to be very friendly and concern but the truth is, you have your own agenda..you think i dont sense that! you gossip more than Cristy Fermin and Boy Abunda sistah.. you keep telling our friends business and my business what give's you the right?So many people respect you..confide to you including me..and what do you do with that information you tell other people! i dont think anyone should say anything to you at all! your'e like a silent killer that's why i dont trust saying one word around YOU!! you know what its ok to indulge in gossip cause its simply part of being alive and being interested in your surroundings. what's wrong in being iinterested in others' lives so long as one does not intrude into someone's privacy or spread rumours gets?
Jabbawockeez is an all-male crew made up of 6 members from San Diego, California. The name originated from Lewis Carol’s book entitled “Through the Looking Glass.” In this children’s book, Jabberwocky is a dragon who roamed the woods. The crew members wear white masks so that people will focus on their dance moves and not on the individuals.
America's Best Dance Crew Live Audition
Americas Best Dance Crew Episode 1
Americas Best Dance Crew Episode 2
Americas Best Dance Crew Episode 3
Americas Best Dance Crew Episode 4
Americas Best Dance Crew Episode 5
Americas Best Dance Crew Episode 6
I recently saw Step up 2 and saw their name as one of the crews dancing..dammit I LOVE THIS CREW! they kill every task that they get..they will be america's best dance crew JabbaWockeeeeezzz Forevaaaahhhhh!!! woot! woot! hihihi..BEST OF LUCK ..Take it to the end!!!! JABBAWOCKEEZ
Flipping cars, curving bullets and Angelina Jolie…need I say more?
IRON MAN TRAILER Starring Robert Downey Jr., Gwyneth Paltrow and Terrence Howard
Speed Racer Trailers!
Warner Brothers have released the new international trailer for The Wachowski Brothers’ Speed Racer . I think that these trailers confirm that the film will be the most colourful movie this year, if not ever. It is certainly interesting what the makers of The Matrix have done. However, some of the shots looks a bit like a video game, or cartoon. I expect everything will be fixed up for when the movie is released in May.
All my life..my family has tried to protect me in some ways..Especially my brothers they would warn me about men and would worry about how they would treat me..and now I understand why they worried sometimes,i am totally convinced that my entire existence is just one stupid disaster after another..I won't go as far as to say that my life has been unfair to me or anything. I have been blessed in many, many ways. I have a lot to be thankful for, even if it gets hard for me to give thanks. I have a wonderful bestfriend,awesome friends, a huge family, a roof over my head, food in my tummy, and the freedom to speak my mind. I'm just so tired of feeling so hopeless, of feeling like I've been surrounded by nothing but hopeless circumstances my entire life. I've been feeling really frustrated with everything lately. I hate myself for the situation I have put myself in. More and more often I've been thinking that I would have been better off if I would have stayed single..I question where I would be..I know there's no point in dwelling on the past, but I just feel so angry for being so stupid. As much as I want to blame all of this emotion on other people's mistakes, I feel most responsible. I feel so guilty. I can't seem to forgive myself for anything. I feel so much shame just for being me. I try to believe that everything happens for a reason, but sometimes I just don't know anymore.
1.) Fine : This is the word women use to end an argument when they are right and you need to shut up.
2.) Five Minutes : If she is getting dressed, this means a half an hour. Five minutes is only five minutes if you have just been given five more minutes to watch the game before helping around the house.
3.) Nothing : This is the calm before the storm. This means something, and you should be on your toes. Arguments that begin with nothing usually end in fine.
4.) Go Ahead : This is a dare, not permission. Don't Do It!
5.) Loud Sigh : This is actually a word, but is a non-verbal statement often misunderstood by men. A loud sigh means she thinks you are an idiot and wonders why she is wasting her time standing here and arguing with you about nothing. (Refer back to #3 for the meaning of nothing.)
6.) That's Okay : This is one of the most dangerous statements a women can make to a man. That's okay means she wants to think long and hard before deciding how and when you will pay for your mistake.
7.) Thanks : A woman is thanking you, do not question, or Faint. Just say you' re welcome.
8.) Whatever : Is a women's way of saying _____ YOU!
9.) Don't worry about it, I got it: Another dangerous statement, meaning this is something that a woman has told a man to do several times, but is now doing it herself. This will later result in a man asking 'What's wrong?' For the woman's response refer to #3.
~To women: Just for a good laugh cause you know its True
~And to men this is to warn you about the arguments you can avoid if u remember the terminology hihihi..
My gift to you is my love Given from deep within my heart It is the best I have to offer And its yours until this earth we depart
You have captured a part of me A part so very fragile that I am in fear For it is my heart I have lost To you my love, the one I hold most dear
I chose to love you now With all that I have and all that I am And I pray that God follows us To guide our steps as we cross this land
For it is with His blessings We will live most at peace with each other For He is the reason after all We found one another ........ and for that I wanted you to know I truly, completely love you so.
Its 9 a.m and Im slightly Manic..I cant seem to hold on to a thought, even though im having a thousands of ideas,plan,conception and opinion...i have been trying to write this blog off and on since yesterday! well,eventhough im kinda downhearted it aint that great ofcourse! but when i look at the brighter side of things..im being hard on myself in truth other than that, im doing pretty damned good..i still do have some good things going on,Like really good Friends..Honest real good (even when they Arent so good sali ko narin sila hihihi..)you know..people i dont have to wear mask with Lolz..these people understand when im shallow like im about to be hahaha! or maybe i even started already .And to my friend Ian thanks for listening to my emotionally involving news report..thanks for taking my calls..and thanks for calling and thanks for baring with me..hmm..Ive been saying "THANKS" a lot today! i really appreciate that.. Its all out of my system now really?am i sure about this?Lolz..you certainly brought a smile to my face...i think that now,i have this drama thing off my mind i might return to being a little more myself...i can see i dont have it so bad after all..Love is a dance and i stumbled, but i havent fallen im still alive and breathing! life goes on...Thanks to a good friend here and good conversation, i am beginning to unwind..Tons of others that care and reach out to me but there in the other side..a place(site) ----dun yan oh! there, look kita nio? hihihi.. where i originally came from! you all make me smile and well..just amazing people! thank god for my friends, you have all been more wonderful and supportive than anyone has a right to..so for a little bad time i discovered people still care about others...even total strangers! what would i do without y'all?? love yah guyz!
♥Happy valentines day♥ ♥Thank You ღ♥ For being My friendღ♥
there will be no point to this blog, no deep thinking,and certainly no orderliness Lolz..so im sitting here trying to write this "off the top of my head" hmmm...what else is on my mind? LALALALA! sings off key hihihi..what next? brain cells Ain't working now so im gonna shut up now and try to sleep..i have nothing to write so toodles for now..Leave u guyz with some questions!
SAY EXACTLY WHATS ON YOUR MIND, AND DON'T CHANGE IT.
1. you & your ex: were Friends now 2. I am listening to: Ne-yo 3. Maybe I should: lose weight...lolz 4. I love: the Lord Almighty! 5. I don't understand: myself... joke!... i don't understand why 6. I have lost my respect for: some people....dot dot dot i dunno! i'm dumb! 7. I last ate: chocolate 8. The meaning of my display name is:Shiela from Guatemala 9. God is: the best!
-IS YOUR/ARE YOU-
1. Is your hair wet? nah 2. Is your cell phone right by you? yup 3. Do you miss someone? yeah so much 4. Are you wearing chapstick? nope 5. Are you tired? yup yup yup...needing rest sleepy but cant sleep..Argh! 6. Are you wearing pajamas? nope 7. Are you mad? no...why? want me to be mad? 8. Are you upset? yeah kinda 9. Why? None of your bizzness hihihi..
HAVE YOU
1. Recently done anything you regret? i don't think so 2. Ever lied? yuh 4. Have you ever kicked someone? yeah... but i've been kicked by someone b4 (sparring) 5. Ever tripped over your own feet? i forgot
TODAY HAVE YOU:
1. Have you cursed? nope... wait... SHIT!... there! hihihi... 2. Have you gotten mad at someone? yeah but become less in a serious way 3. Who? dot dot dot
RANDOM
Q: Is there a person who is on your mind right now? A: yes...
Q: Do you have any siblings? A: yeah 3 ermanos & 1 siztah
Q: Do you want children? A: ofcourse i do...but study first!
Q: Do you smile often? A: yes i do
Q: Do you untie your shoes every time you take them off? A: yep
Q: Do you like your handwriting? A: yeah
Q: Are your toenails painted? A: no
Q: Who's bed other than yours would you rather sleep in? A: the bed in QC...it's big and comfy
Q: what color shirt are you wearing right now? A: pink
Q: What were you doing at 7pm yesterday? A: eating
Q: I can't wait till: A: new year! hahaha..fireworks! fireworks! Boom! Boom!
Q: What would you rather be called? A: ZAI, zaira..mariama
Q: When did you cry last?. A: no comment
Q: Are you a friendly person? A: Yes i am
Q: Do you have any pets? A: yeah 1 pitbull, 1 chinese shar pei, 1 labrador retriever, 1 english foxhound and 9 goldfish
Q: Ever cried on your friend's shoulder? A: i don't think so...lil bro maybe
DISAPPOINTED....there so much goin on in my head rightnow! i believe that God likes to test his children and he definitely tested me last night..Right now, i hate how my life has been and how it turned out! I am bummed Out about something and this goes out to you ..you know who you are !why some people i swear are on this earth to make others feel miserable..Devil in Disquise! today, you are going to see a different me..A side that you might not like...i will still be myself..but i am gonna continue to keep it real..and more real it will be! all my life I've been told to not say how i feel..and all my life i have been told not to pretty much express myself..Now, it doesn't F(#*)KING matter..some thing i gotta get off my chest...YOU LET ME DOWN..BIGTIME!!!! i trusted you why you have to lie about it??i told you before to keep it real..just be honest and we have no problems! this is exactly what i told you before if my memory doesn't fail me.." im just being careful coz someone broke my heart and it was a closed friend of mine..sometimes people dont say what they should say right away, i am a person that has dealt with social phobia most of my life if it was up to me.. i would avoid people as much as i could..i just dont mainly because i do want to know more about them and i have a big heart that has a lot of love to give" sana at that time when i told you that u shouldn't take time to bother me! that explained why im suspicious of you before i often sit in disbelief about the validity of everything that u said ..i have a hard time with boundaries either too much or too little, i tend to keep people at certain level.THE SAFE LEVEL and for whatever reason i dont know why i trusted you and let you in..that was the greatest mistake i made! i wish that my heart never opened..i wish that i never expressed myself so freely in such outgoing way lately..i want to keep this to myself but hell i feel like screaming inside. a friend told me to blog about this so i can burst out this feelings..I cant really go into it to much..this weighing heavy on my heart and i need to cut down on my online activity..but i definitely will be blogging and i will be checking my email..today, i didn't want to leave my room i know its early its 5 a.m but im usually out of my room at that time..i didn't want to eat..i didn't want to answer the phone ..i usually dont want to answer the phone but today was different..i feel like all my strength is gone..How do i feel rightnow??? i feel like i died...God, I dont know why i feel so hurt inside that i dont think it can be repaired!
ok, enough zai...enough already..and step out of your room and say no word!!! sigh**
First, I will start with a confession...i have 3 other blogs...Lolz, Im serious...Now that i got that off my chest..i feel a lil better now hihihi!..This is goin to be my main blog from now on coz i feel like talking to myself there and i heard its closing out could be true coz there's no updating for a long time..my other blog is on the pinoy community site just like filipino.net hihihi...i blog there like once a month and i think i will probably close that and transfer all my entries there to here..the second one is in a nice site that makes me feel like im helping out the world hahaha! i know i dont share as much of myself here but starting now i will try to...from now On Well, I migrated tofilipino.net this is goin to be my home yipee ! wel, today was a pretty good day coz i woke up seriously early around 4 a.m coz i slept in early lastnight and that was the first time..i have been dealing with insomnia since H/S so its almost never i experience an 8 hours of sleep..well, anyway this is my first blog Transferee hihihi...
I have wanted to write this blog but didn't know how to explain myself... I have worried about how people will take it, I wanted to avoid it but it just doesn't seem to go away... People are so consumed with looks and I think it's time I said something more on the issue... Whether others like the way I look or not, shouldn't matter. Whether I like how you look should not matter because bodies are nothing more than objects without a soul, Some may be pretty to look at but all are useless to my needs... I'd rather have a sculpture that isn't going to age and die than someone’s body without a loving soul and a warm heart filled with laughter and compassion. Friendships must be real and must be built on more than looks, cars, fame, money, lust, shopping, and the constant talking about these things. We as a society need to understand this thought that I tell myself every time I feel my ego coming on and every time I feel hurt by someone’s words... ( this is what I tell myself) I am not my body, so when you compliment my face and my body you are not giving me a compliment, you are only complimenting the creator. In fact your words have no power when you compliment me unless it is something I worked for and earned. When you insult me based on things I have no control over your words have no power. Compliments can be harmful when people let them go to their heads. Whether comments inflate the ego or lower your self esteem, either way comments on mere looks are meaningless. I make the choice to keep up on my appearance but I'm not going to let others opinions make me decide I need a nose job, or that I need to go on a diet, or get a lipo. I'm going to let my own opinions dictate what I do, and let myself stay in complete control. In closing... We will all age, with time... Wrinkles will start to show... The gray hairs will come... Then the white ones... Our bodies will change... It may not be glamorous to most but there is a beauty in this cycle of life. I think more will come to understand and see the beauty in laughter lines that show a man who has had a fulfilling life; the wrinkled hands of a woman who has worked hard for everything she owns and contributed greatly to her family. No one is immune to aging and I think that you can do it with grace if you understand what matters. The sad part about this fact is many people spend so much time trying to fight the natural process that comes with age. They invest so much in there looks so much worry and stress... For what?!? That's what I ask you... When you spend too much time on these things you realize later on, when they fade, that you didn't focus enough energy on the things that really mattered in life. Friendships that are superficial won't stand the test of time. If you don't believe me ask some of the people who seem to be jaded from the bodies that no longer attract guys and gals. Or the friends that left as soon as the money was gone. Then you will understand that it is a fake world, but we can change that if we choose to open our eyes and react to this knowledge. To change it all you have to do is recognize that what you own is not who you are and neither is your body. So don't confuse self worth with you're looks or what you have acquired. It will all leave you, all of it... All that you take with you is the experiences with others, the soul searching and knowledge, the personal building and growth, and the love that you have shared and received with others. So let's take as much with us as possible and stop wasting time that could be spent on the good stuff.
really?am i sure about this?Lolz..you certainly brought a smile to my face...i think that now,i have this drama thing off my mind i might return to being a little more myself...i can see i dont have it so bad after all..Love is a dance and i stumbled, but i havent fallen im still alive and breathing! life goes on...Thanks to a good friend here and good conversation, i am beginning to unwind..Tons of others that care and reach out to me but there in the other side..a place(site) ----dun yan oh! there, look kita nio? hihihi.. where i originally came from! you all make me smile and well..just amazing people! thank god for my friends, you have all been more wonderful and supportive than anyone has a right to..so for a little bad time i discovered people still care about others...even total strangers! what would i do without y'all?? love yah guyz!
..you know who you are
!why some people i swear are on this earth to make others feel miserable..Devil in Disquise
! today, you are going to see a different me..A side that you might not like...i will still be myself..but i am gonna continue to keep it real..and more real it will be! all my life I've been told to not say how i feel..and all my life i have been told not to pretty much express myself..Now, it doesn't F(#*)KING matter
..some thing i gotta get off my chest...YOU LET ME DOWN..BIGTIME!!!! i trusted you why you have to lie about it??i told you before to keep it real..just be honest and we have no problems! this is exactly what i told you before if my memory doesn't fail me.." im just being careful coz someone broke my heart and it was a closed friend of mine..sometimes people dont say what they should say right away, i am a person that has dealt with social phobia most of my life if it was up to me.. i would avoid people as much as i could..i just dont mainly because i do want to know more about them and i have a big heart that has a lot of love to give" sana at that time when i told you that u shouldn't take time to bother me! that explained why im suspicious of you before i often sit in disbelief about the validity of everything that u said ..i have a hard time with boundaries either too much or too little, i tend to keep people at certain level.THE SAFE LEVEL and for whatever reason i dont know why i trusted you and let you in..that was the greatest mistake i made! i wish that my heart never opened..i wish that i never expressed myself so freely in such outgoing way lately..i want to keep this to myself but hell i feel like screaming inside. a friend told me to blog about this so i can burst out this feelings..I cant really go into it to much..this weighing heavy on my heart and i need to cut down on my online activity..but i definitely will be blogging and i will be checking my email..today, i didn't want to leave my room i know its early its 5 a.m
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